Today is an extraordinary day. Outside it’s snowing and there are days left until Christmas. This year was filled with lots of emotions – there was joy and sadness, some unpleasant happenings, but there are, of course, the pretty ones that when you think about them and you become very nice and pleasant. Well, with the arrival of the last month, the end of this year will come too. I am happy and grateful for everything that has happened. I learned valuable lessons from my experience and I’m stronger as a person in the future. I know there are more days in which things can happen – please just be nice!
And now I’ve decided to share something final this year, though so early. The next day, as I lay in my head a new idea turned. I began to think about things and came to some conclusions. That is why today I write my last post not only this year, but for a long indefinite time. This year I left my job, I left a university, and I said I would have time for myself, more time to write posts, edit them, take photos, be active in chats and other things, read and comment on other blogger posts. I had an almost ready plan with posts for December. I was going to attempt blogmas and be like other bloggers.
Ha! Here I realized … to be like other bloggers.
I thought that I already have a lot of indicators I am getting close to what an incredibly high percentage of bloggers around the world do. Why should I do these things? What am I winning? In fact, against the backdrop of what I earn, I realized how much I lost. I started all this, blinded by another girl, who never cares about me and what I do. Almost four years ago I have been dealing with social networks, reading blogs and writing posts. I separated four years of my life! Yes, thanks to these four years, to some extent I have perfected English, I learned to write quickly, meaningfully and on a given topic, I developed my creativity in this respect, so in school, when we had to write essays, I was the happiest. Quite simply, I love to write and think about some topics or something that has occurred to me. Why not? I first did it by looking at the others, then I started to do it with love and desire.
But! Looking at these years how everything changes, I no longer see the desire to write and share where nobody almost reads me. Yes, honestly, I did not care if someone was reading, but now I do not want to pour out my soul here, at least for a while. Yes, I’ve met virtually many people which seem to me to be unreal, but that’s the world we live in – the new age, the new wave! Separately reading some posts I learned interesting things. Maybe these are the benefits I see from this whole thing. Oh, I almost forgot – I started to make very nice pictures and after my active participation in Twitter, a lot of bloggers started to write to me on this topic. So I can summarize – English, virtual friends, creative thinking, new knowledge, photographic abilities.
But I’ve generally lost my time always being the first to someone’s post to like, read and share it because that’s what friends do, is not it? But I was in error. The other day I started to read a book which says that if one does something, it is because first of all he enjoys himself, he wants to make himself happy first, no matter that in his head he will delight another person . And when the other person does not respond to his good deeds, he has no right to be angry. Apparently, these cases were not good enough, or he/she did not like them, or was not happy with what you were doing. That is, we should not want anything in return. Whoever is well-educated and human conscious will understand even the smallest gestures you make about him and will show you some gratitude. Well, I did not see such a personally! I always get tired of giving myself everything and helping others and me to wait for something.
I am guilty, so there is no point in continuing to do so.
But when you stop, and somehow the other side is already angry. I realized that all this time I was a naive fan of many bloggers and I admired them, but I learned the lesson. The real big stars, where they give them on TV, know how to be grateful to the people who support them. That’s why they’ve gone so far and people keep loving them! I spent four years on the Internet, in ten applications. I had ten apps on my phone to be productive and supportive everywhere. Finally, however, I made a simple arithmetic of how many hours I spend a day looking at all of these apps, with a lot of them help me generate more traffic for my blog. When I got a new phone for my birthday this year, I decided to remove some of them and leave the more important ones. But again, there were some new ones that I needed and so their number was too much, I have nine apps in the folder. That’s too much, but it’s a fact.
That is, I keep wasting my time, looking at what is going on and supposedly helping to win the readers. But I was really tired. I have become too addicted to this new era, new technologies, and so on.
It’s already super-banal.
That’s why my decision is very simple – I’ll uninstall everything from my phone and focus on all the things that I also want to do for four years, but I do not have enough time or I do not have enough motivation. A lot of people say stop watching TV because nothing good we learn from there. Well, of all these social networks that have swallowed us, are our lives better? I know people who hardly watch TV, others who do not have a TV in their rooms, but they spend a lot of time on their phones. Even I watch two or three hours of television myself, but I spend more time on my phone. Even by watching a show, I’m chatting with someone on the phone. That’s what’s coming out – we’re just walking creatures that have lost their properties and their powers for a meaningful life.
Good job Internet!
Even the very thought that I’m writing this thing now speaks a lot – but hey, after a while things will change! Facebook has long been no longer what it was. You go in and look at total simplicity – ‘clever’ status, great friendship, whoever he has quarreled with, some pictures that make fun of some people, funny videos, and a bunch of sponsored posts already. Nothing interesting. Messenger – I do not want to chat with anyone anymore. Twitter – where everyone mumbles how many views they have, about followers, how he no longer likes that person or taht brand or that he has terrible anxiety and panic attacks, but thank God has looked at the statistics of the blog and has thousands of views – WOW! Dramas, dramas and people with sick ambitions. Well, here’s some interesting post and people to say two or three words. Instagram – with their great consistency you can not keep track of things and you miss so much that you are angry about, but you do not know why. This is the only app I’ll keep because I have some communication with people there. Separately, one application against the background of ten, sounds much better, plus there I can share photos. Pinterest – I can spend here for hours, enjoying photos of all kinds. Snapchat – to take a look at all the people stories, it takes me about an hour again … We Heart It – an inspiration for photos. I also have Page Manager for my Facebook page as well as Hootsuite, which helps me to spread my posts at Twitter. WordPress – one of the most important applications – watching stats, reading comments, answering, sharing my last posts.
So my life is on social networks, interested in the lives of other people – it’s just a waste of precious time that I will never be able to regenerate. That’s why I told my mother yesterday what I am going to do, and she fully supports me, not to mention how she smiled – it seems to be proud of me!
So I wish you all the success in your lives – the real one where things are not so pink and here, in the online space where you give great examples!
See you soon, maybe.
XOXO,
MOI
& just how I already said – Basic is trending, we have to bang it! – read here to understand what I am talking about.
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